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Im a ON and OFF blogger, blog when my mood is there. Owner of La.sista Collection Online Fashion shop. I still do sport; Marathon and Mix Martial Arts. I LOVE buying shoes but I don't really wear them. Here is where I write my nonsense.

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Wednesday, March 7, 2012

You.Me

When we can't really bare to losing, it will make us suffer. If you ask me, can I bare of losing, I can only tell you I can lose in any game but not in Love and Family. If you ask me, can I let go you? But can you ask yourself before you ask me this question? Can you let go me?! I mean for serious let go.

I really try to forget you, since the day u go back. I try really hard to ignore everything related on you. I try not to let my tears drop for you again, but still my tears just love to wash my face and love to wet my pillow every night. I hope you are the same as me. But seem like you are not, probably because the place you living don't really have thing related to us. 

I actually think and try to keep away every single thing which related you, but know what!? It just remind me that's everything on me is all belong to you or it was from you. My bag, wallet, watch, necklace and most of the thing in my room was all bought by you. Even my face washing foam set was bought by you too. If I want to forgot you there only two choice for me, 1; Throw everything in my room and keep away all the stuff u gave me. 2; Leave this room, and find a new room. Which choice do I have to choose? Can you teach me how to choose!?

I try not to think about you, but everywhere I go or everything I do all will linked to you. When I hoping to have dessert as supper no more you accompany me to Sweet Huts. When I really want to have sushi, no more you fetching me to dinner. When I'm tired just hoping to have a little fight with you but no more you. I really feel bored without you. Hope you will bored without me too.

One year wasn't short wasn't long, but for me this one year really mean many to me. Is you, who make me sad and happy at the same time, angry but still feel pampered by you at the same time. The one who teach me many thing and lead me many in my life. When there a problem or question you will be the first listener and my counselor. When I want something, you do it although u don't like it or keep saying "NO" but end up still doing so. Really miss you silly face and your very cute sleeping face. Miss how we fight for food. Miss how we always fight. Miss the time when we say each other fatty.

Know what? People say when they meet death, they will think more and more old stuff.  After we separated, all those old memories keep flowing in. Hope you still remember how we meet. all those playful moment, especially the day we crazily play and snap photo at pavilion. Still remember every night I bought you dinner. Remember what you called me and what I called you. Remember how I Love to mess with you puffy helmet hair. Remember you will disturb me even after a fight or argument with you. Still remember I messed up your surprise for me on our anniversary. Remember how lovely and playful we are before this. Snapping photo although you don't like snapping photo. Please remember and don't forget those memories. Please keep everything from me properly. Please don't lost my photo, my gift and clothes from me. One year later maybe will get it all back from you!

Hope I really can let go, and also hoping you will come back. If you not happy or suffer you can find me, as you know I always your listener. GoodBye Baby~

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